It's been a few weeks since my last blog. Let's see, allot has changed. I got laid off. As much as I was embracing the very idea of being able to stay at home and clean, and blog, bake, walk and lounge.... I am not enjoying it as much as I thought I would.
I feel uneasy about the entire "jobless" title. I am trying to look at it as an opportunity to change the course of my life, for the better. However, with the same amount of bills rolling in, with less pay, doesn't sit well on my stress neck. I know it will all work out, and I am to take one day at a time while thinking positive, it still is an LEERY feeling.
I am a schedule person. I love routine and I love schedules. So, I thought that today, I would make myself out a schedule for each day of the week, for new things to tackle. Believe it or not, I have been pretty good about keeping myself busy and productive. I think even more things will get done, once I make a list. One thing that has helped my anxiety and fear is walking. I am so glad that I have Incorporated this into my lifestyle, because with out that, I would sit at home staring at the wall. Instead, I get up with John around 5:30 and walk my normal 3.2 with my friend Robin, go home shower, make my breakfast and then I plan out my day.
Last week I was busy with getting everything ready for camping. Which was good, took my mind off of not having a job, and what the future will hold. My friends are helping me stay cheered up and I am so grateful for them. Right now, I need as many social outlets as possible, so that I do not become inverted and a home body/couch potato. I don't even want to turn on the TV until late afternoon if I can help it. I refuse to spend this time off, watching TV and sitting on the couch all day. I will need a break here and there, and that's not to say one day I want to stay in my Jammie's and veg... but that will be a rare occasion.
I am going to call the school and make my appointment for my assessment test. I am going to work source Monday at 9:30 to sit in on a training class they have about going to school while receiving unemployment benefits. I also, will take my assessment text next week as well.
I just know that since this door has closed, another one will open... I am peeking behind the corner, to see whats next as my eyes are closed, I feel like I am gripping onto the wall, not wanting to move forward just because of fear. I know that I need to move forward, not stay in this spot... knowing full and well that my steps are ordered my God. Showing Him that I do trust him, and setting my fears at ease.
I will try to make it a point to blog more, I know it's healthy for me.... as far as my weight loss, I am not sure what the scale will say this Friday... as we went camping, and had kind of a bad run of naughty types of food... but I got back into walking yesterday, and that to me, is what's important. June may be a stead halt for weight loss, as we leave for Alaska next week. Wow, I can't believe that its the first of June already.
Well I have a few recipes to post and then I am off to run errands and get some things done around this hear house. The dogs do nothing except sleep, they are no help!
Coffee anyone?
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